Baby

There will be no pictures with this post, just new news! I have been after Aaron for quite some time now to let me have another baby. 1 year and 8 months to be exact. We went back and forth, I was serious at times and not so serious at others. I think Aaron could sense that and maybe that is why he didn't think it was such a big deal. In August of last year Aaron sent me a text that said I could have 1 more! I was very excited and even told people I was going to have another baby. He told me to wait until November to get my I.U.D. out though, so I did wait and I got it out. Then Aaron wouldn't touch me. He was ornery and wasn't excited at all about doing this. So, in December I got it put back in. We didn't talk about it much until about the summer time. I was getting anxious, Madi would talk about a sister all the time and my life was just too easy! I was getting lonely, Brayd no longer needed me as much, he is 4 and becoming very independent.

In August, Aaron fasted about it, then went to Lake Powell for a week. He felt that he should let me act in my full capacity and maybe he wasn't letting me do that by not letting me have another baby. When he came back from Lake Powell he gave me the go-ahead again. So, I got my I.U.D. out again. With Ryan and Brayden when we decided to have them it took me a month to get pregnant so I was expecting this. September came and I wasn't pregnant. Joanna and Christie were though. They are due May 6 and April 30. This was probably a good thing. October 2nd came and I got a positive pregnancy test. I took another one the next day with the same results. I put the test on the counter for Aaron to see-I still knew he was doing this more for me. He likes that our babies are old enough to do their thing and play with us. Not so much whining, crying, dirty diapers and drama! I didn't say anything to him after I knew he had seen the test. I wanted him to talk about it, I was scared ~ True Story ~

Later that day as Brayden, Aaron and I were driving around with Jayci in the back who was crying, We have this conversation...

Aaron.....I don't want another baby.

Me....Too late.

Aaron.....Why did you take a pregnancy test?

Me.....Aaron, I'm pregnant.

Aaron......No you're not, one line was lighter than the other.

Me.....It doesn't matter, there just needs to be two lines.

SILENCE.....the whole way home.

The conversation wasn't brought up again until 3 days later. He went down to visit the Vegas store and he saw Matt and Karly's baby. When he came home that night he told me he was excited to have a baby. That was very comforting and surprising to hear.

So, our journey begins.....We have our doctor's appointment on November 1st. I haven't been feeling well this last week. I'm getting older so I really want to have a healthy pregnancy. I don't want to gain a lot of weight. I want to feel good, I don't eat everything in sight and I'm trying to be a good girl-not too emotional. I feel pretty good when I wake up until about noon then until 5 I feel pretty yucky. I then get better for the evenings. I spend that time sleeping a lot. Better than eating! My poor boys can't figure out why I won't let friends over now. Porter was probably a little confused when I asked him to bring me saltine crackers in bed last night at 930 and Madi gets mad when I hold my stomach. She thinks I am teasing her. I'm thinking we will tell them our big secret after my doctor's appointment on Tuesday.

Well, that's the story. We will see what happens next....